Earlier this week, a friend and I were talking. With all the craziness that is known as first trimester pregnancy, some very vital things have been thrown down to the bottom of my priorities list. The thing is, I know where they should be. I know where I want them to be. Those two places would be the same.
Here's what I know my priorities should be (and what I want them to be):
- God/Quiet time
- Husband
- Family
- Friends
- Everything else
Here's what they have been:
- Everything else
- Friends
- Husband
- Family
- God/Quiet time
So lately I've been a little confused, stressed, easily irritated, and so on. Through conversations like the one I mentioned earlier, I have come to realize that I have a great need to get my priorities back in line. Until they are in proper order (or at least close to proper order) those mental states are not going to change.
The One Year Bible with the hubs? Yeah, we started it off with great intentions...but haven't been able to remain as steadfast as either of us had hoped. So we'll try it later, maybe after the baby comes, but until then, we're going to look for something else to do together.
This morning, before work, I took a baby step in the right direction. I made a quiet time binder. It's a central location for anything and everything pertaining to quiet time/spiritual health. It will contain everything from a prayer journal, scriptures that jump out at me during quiet time, excerpts from devotionals/blogs/books that I really like and want to have easily accessible, to songs that nourish my soul, the 1,000 gifts list(s), ect.
Baby step two, for me? Taking this month off of Facebook. It takes up so much of my time, that I really need to get away from it, at least for a while. It always helps when I disconnect for a while, if even only from one of the facets.
The plan is to wake up tomorrow morning and have that be the first thing I see. The first thing I do. The plan is to first write out a prayer, then meditate on some scripture, and perhaps listen to some worship.
This isn't something I want to do tomorrow and tomorrow only. This is a change I hope to make long term. This is a habit I hope to establish. One that I can pass down to our little one. Maybe even spend some time with the little one reading, singing, laughing after our journey of life starts.
So here I am, about to head to bed. Getting as much rest as I can tonight. For it is already Friday, my how time has escaped me tonight. Will give updates and progress reports as time goes on. Hopefully this will re-ignite my creative gland when it comes to posting more frequently again.
Blessings on the start of June for you friends!
Oh how we are on parallel journeys. I can relate to the confusion, stress, irritability etc..... For I am also not spending the amount of time with God that I should be. Thank you for the reminder/confirmation that today is a new day. That today, I can shift my priorities to the way God designed them to be. Today, can be the day that I get back on track.
ReplyDeleteI applaud your honesty and transparency. Its not always easy to bare our mistakes so openly. But the way I see it is, darkness can not exist in the light, and when we expose these things to the light, well, then, they begin to fade. Jesus' Light is so much brighter than our tendencies.....
God bless you my friend....I look forward to watching you grow closer and closer to Our Lord and Savior.